Waktu

Engkau pergi lagi
setelah sesaat singgah dalam suatu ruang hening
dimana kau temukan sebuah tumpukan mimpi
yang usang
tetapi selalu kau kenang

kau pergi lagi
walau jarak tak pernah berarti bagi kita
karena sedekat apapun, tetap tak tersentuh
dan sejauh apapun tetap selalu terikat
jarak hanya sesuatu yang nyata dalam maya
sesuatu khayalan dalam realita

kau pergi lagi
membawa tangis yang tersimpan
jauh dalam lubuk kalbu

kau pergi lagi

Engkau

Dimanakah engkau
saat rindu memeluk kalbu
dan mencipta haru

dimanakah dirimu
ketika asa terhempas pilu
dan teronggok di sudut berdebu

dimanakah engkau
saat aku mencarimu

TQ 4 Adek Rika & Aa

RINDU

hati yang tersayat bimbang
ketika masa lalu kembali datang
mempesona hati bagai indahnya kembang
dan kenangan bagai cahaya menerawang
masalalu yang terus memanggila pulang
untuk sebuah cinta yang hilang

hati yang teralun rindu
bergelombang dalam galau
dan hati menjadi begitu kelabu
berdiri bimbang antara kini dan masa lalu
yang menyentakan pilu
membawa sejuta rindu
untuk kembali dalam pelukmu

apakah harus memunguti serpihan asa?
merangkai remahan cerita
yang tak pernah sempurna
dan menyusun kembali mimpi-mimpi yang tersisa
di sebuah sudut rasa

mungkin, suatu saat aku pernah menjadi segalamu
dengan segala setiaku
namun semua usai bersama waktu
tlah kuantar kau ke tempat tuju
ke sebuah mimpi yang kau rindu
melepasmu pergi menembus langit biru

kini
ku terduduk dalam sepi
mencari diri
dan hati
yang kembali kau bawa pergi

(To Adek Rika & Aa, tq 4 inspiring me)

Dry season

Falling leaves
in the begining of dry season
take the sad feeling
into the deepst of my heart

and when warm wind touch my face
i feel that your hand weep the cheek

how can i let this feeling inside
with you
between my tears

Friends

for you my true
may be i will forget my friends
but i will not forget you
coz you always in my heart
and stay in my mind

and while im walking under the sunshine
i feel that you hug me
under the shadow of purple tree

may the distance keep us a part
in my soul you always close

i miss you alot

Last Day

this from the last day at Rehovot, May 28 - 2009

All memories running
And playing in my mind
When the time to say goodbye
Come slowly to our life

Dear,
You asked me to stop crying
And put the smile in my face
And saw the light in my eyes
But
You also cry when you hold my hand
And try hard to hide your cry between silent

Dear
You never understand of my sadness
The meaning of you in my life
When you give me strength
Support
And try to understand my complicated style

Dear
Only some days we been together
But you live forever in my heart
And only my death can take you away from my mind

Dear
Still your watery eyes remain with me
No need to say any promise
But
You will always know
“You stay away from me but you living with me”

Dear
Do you know?
While I was crying I was so broken
Cos I know
At the day I leave you
that the day of our togetherness
and we never see again
until our last day in this world
maybe
and
I will not see your smile
I will not hear your sweet voice
And
There’s no time for share our moment

Dear
My heart always calling you
remembering you smiling under the hard sun
and the time when we walk along the street
all sweet memories
all memories about you

DROPLET at REHOVOT

Idea come when i feel the droplet in the way to Tnuva Dairy

Hmmmmmmmmm
That droplet
Slowly flying in the air
Come into my deep heart
And call remembering place of you
Give me misty feeling
About our sadly friendships

It is not a rain, dear
But become tears in my mind
All things take all about you back to me
From thousand days of your leaving
You always with me
In every steps and breath

It is the first time in Rehovot
I touch the tears of the sky
And its broken my strength

Im so far from your grave
But you handed my heart so tight
And give me the never ending sadness
In every droplet
For the crying sky of Rehovot

My Sunshine

remembering the sunshine at Rehovot

Sunshine
That shower me with care
Under the blue flower
And handle my hand
Under the light

Sunshine
That awakening me from dream
And give me laughing for nature

Sunshine
That teach me to dance
Over my broken heart
And fill with happiness
Between the first and the last
And keep me smile till now

Sunshine
That bring me from sleepy mind
And aid as cooperative
But
Actually for being my self

Remebering Night

remebering night at Rehovot


Night
I am longing the time when we together
When u hug me with your darkness
In the lonely balcony

Night,
I remember the time
When your breeze touch pale face
And let me fly away

Night
Really I miss the moment
To be with you
Walking alone
Trough the dew on the grass
Dancing between the yellowish light

Night
Where are you now?

Buzy Mind

teach me how to sleep, Rehovot - Israel


sleepy eyes
buzy mind
cant sleep
even try

turn off the light
still not help
sleepy eyes
buzy mind
never let me
fall in sleep

night come till dawn
sleepy eyes can not close
many thing come to mind

sleepy eyes,
buzy mind

who the part of this?
hear

My Sunshine

Rieschfield Resident, Rehovot - Israel

good morning my sunshine
thank you for shining my day
and give light to my dark side of life

good morning my sunshine
give me your best smile of you
and i will smile with you

good morning my sunshine
and you will be higher by by the time
and turn warm into hot day

good morning my sunshine,
that change the shadow

good morning my sunshine
time running in pace
and when sun down
you also gone

good morning my sunshine

Half Moon

After farewell party, Rehovot - Israel

Night flying under the half moon
walking under the purple tree

party is almost over
taking all the pain back to mind

hallo..
welcome back o the real life
the hurting part ever

be strength
and smile

NIGHT at BALCONY

(when standing at Riechfield Residence, Rehovot - Israel)

Night,
thank you for the dark,
that kissing me in silent
and hug me between the heart beating

Night
thank you for the star
that blinking in the heart
and give me comfort feeling

Night
thank you for the wind
that running in mind
and refreshing the cold heart

Night
thank you for being with me
in the silent balcony
and come with the breeze of midnight

GARDEN OF TIME

IN SEED CLASS, REHOVOT - ISRAEL


grows beautifulness
in the garden of time
come one butterfly
and then left after

fly away
fly and fly

you are free
and do your choices

we are so different in many ways
so,
dont expecting too much
cos you will loose
and someday find reality
that you are missing the best part of yours

flying in the garden of time
the place when we meet
are the place when we apart

welcome to the hurting reality

PURPLE HEART

The idea come when i saw trees with purple flowers around HUJI campus, Rehovot - Israel


Dear
Bring me the purple flower
That waving me every morning
In the beginning of summer season
That left the cold winter and got away all dark side

Dear
Bring me that warm feeling
So this summer will come early
But end last

Dear
Bring me the fresh air of last autum
For us to remember
If we get the next winter

SOUND OF MIDNIGHT

Rehovot - Israel, this idea came when listening some song

listen the sound of the night
when you still wake up
alone on your balcony
and cold breeze kissing ur face
just sound of the emptiness
slowly surounding you
listen to your deeply heart
that something missing inside
and you never know where the missing part is
just looking to inside
and see away..
maybe you will find the answer
where your heart will run to
and when run away

listen to the sound of midnight
maybe you can hear the voice
of your pure heart
between your unpeacefull heart

Looking of You in my Heart

(this idea always knocked my head in the morning when i walked to the cafetaria, and when walked back to the apartment. I wrote down in the bored class. Rehovot, May 15 - 2009)

remembering the time
when i was walking at the pathway
looking to empty wood chair under the purple tree
imagine that u was sitting there
waving your hand to me
and with happily heart i will run to your side

but you was not there

remembering the time
i was walking along in a buzy street
my heart was hoping that you will come out from that crowded
take my hand and give me your warm smile

but you not there

remembering the time
when i was sitting in the bus tour
i was thinking that you sitting beside me
share all the view together

but she is not you

Yes
my heart is always looking for you

(where are you.....?)

THAT is YOU ...

(idea came in between of my crowded sleep, and wrote down in a bore class. Rehovot - Israel, May 15, 2009)

THAT is YOU

You
the one who made me wake up from deeply sleeping
brought me to the dark side of the night
and stepping into a hide away home
a house of our mind

You
who is bothering the peaceful mind
handing me to the tricky way
to manipulate feeling

You
who is always taking me to other side of thinking
and beautiful of to be silent and alone
and learn to listen
all our own heart need

(thank you for giving such a diferent way of thinking)

i wrote it when i was alone in my apartement (Rehovot Israel, May17, 2009). it corelated with LET ME

LET ME be

let me be your blood
that running with in your body and bd give you life
let me be the fresh spring breeze
that kiss your face and give you flowerish scent
let me be your part of your mind
so i always be with you all the time

(TQ 4 U, ur words like a waking for my 'hibernate' mind.... )

LET ME

The idea come when i took a glass of water and drink it at break time at my class, HUJI- Rehovot, Israel, May 13, 2009


Let me be the water
that moist your lips
Let me be the wind
that touch your cheek
Let me be the night
that hug you in your sleep
Let me be the sun
that warm your day
Let me be the smile
that make your day better
Let me be some body
that take your hand when you sad
And
Let me be your handkerchief
when your tear come down

TIRED MIND

This poem come to my mind when i woke up at three o'clock in the morning.And i wrote it in bored class. HUJI - Rehovot, Israel, May 13, 2009


When the sun run down
And all dream rush out
The lamp turn on with its yellowish color
Coldness hug your heart tightly
Loneliness came in silent
Knocked the door of your tired mind
Some of longing feeling torn your toughness
And that sadly feeling slowly whispering
Let the river of tears rolling in deep heart
No need to cry
No time to say about hurt
Just keep it in your crowded sleep
Let your tear crystallized

lintas kenangan

ketika
waktu seperti kembali berjalan ke masa lalu
meski berjuta perubahan tlah banyak terjadi
tapi lintas-lintas kenangan
terasa masih begitu segar
kadang begitu tajam menghujam
begitu sakit menghimpit
begitu seam mencekam
atau bahkan menghadirkan sesungging senyum

dan
perjalanan panjang itu
menghantar kesebuah titik kesadaran
bahwa tak pernah dapat diduga
nasib akan membawa diri kita
melampaui masa-masa
ada yang datang ada yang pergi
ada senyum
ada air mata
ada tawa dalam duka
ada luka dalam suka

tak ada yang tak berubah
kecuali perubahan itu

Inikah Saatnya?

Ketika gemuruh itu
Menghentakan aku dari lamunan panjang
Kenyataan menghempasku pada kegamangan
Semua tlah luluh lantak
Dan mimpi hancur berkeping-keping
Dalam serpihan-serpihan tak berbentuk

Ketika gelegar itu memecah rasa
Dalam terhuyung ku coba mengangkat wajah
Begitu pedih segenap luka di sekujur tubuh
Dan darah bagai tak henti menetes dari luka-luka itu
Dan aku tak mampu lagi hentakan langkah
Betapa berat beban yang menghimpit

Segenap kenangan berlarian dalam bayangan mata
Dalam gelap pelupuk yang semakin berat kubuka
Dan dingin yang perlahan merayapi tubuh
Perlahan membekukan diri

Allah Rabbku,Inikah saat Engkau memanggilku pulang?

SOME QUOTES FROM ZULFEE
(thank u for donate me this nice quotes)

1. Four great ways of living
first look back & thanks to ALLAH
second Look forward & trust ALLAH
third Look around and Believe ALLAH
fourth Look within U and find ALLAH

2. A beautiful believes
- if God answer ur pray
He is increasing ur faith
- If God delays
He is increasing ur patience
-If he doesnt answer
He knows u can handle it

3. Keep the smile, leave the tear,
think of joy, forget the fear,
hold the laugh, leave the pain
be joyous till i sms again (hehhehehehe)

4. Salam D
God helps those who helps themselves

5. i have 3 parts of my heart
first for my God
second for my family
third for my friends

but

no part for you

bcs

you

are

my heart

5. Last night
i caught some stars

i ll give them
to the people
who just so sparklingly SPECIAL
to me

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catch it
it is 4 U